Same Song, Second Verse Same As The First…Other Side
I must confess. I have not been up late at night…much…lately. I’ve been sleeping very well and feeling good when I wake up the next day. Never mind that I was sick for two weeks with food poisoning. My bills are paid. There is food in my cupboards. And there’s a wee little bit to offset the unexpected thing that might come up. It is amazing how having a little extra cash in the bank and a car that is reliable changes one’s outlook on life. It’s also pretty incredible how that makes it easier to sleep. It’s been a good month. Or rather, a good couple of weeks. I can’t complain. And I won’t start now, even though, life has turned on the proverbial dime for me, once again.
Yesterday, I had my annual bilateral mammogram. Yep. Both sides. This last year, the one that gave me all the drama was the right side. I just had imaging on that in September and the results were clear. No issues. Nice. Of course, I expected the same report after this appointment yesterday. Sigh. It is always disappointing when the doctor calls you back in less than 24 hours on something like this. (No news is good news in the cancer department.) The call came in at dinner time. (There was a shooting in a mall in my state tonight. A big mall. With lots of people. At Christmas, no less. Then there’s the whole Michigan and Right To Work stuff happening.) And then…The Call. The call that basically stated hey, the results are that you are going to sing the same song, second verse, same as the first…on the left side. One year, almost to the exact day and I’m going through the DCIS (ductile carcinoma in situ) process again.
And my only reaction is this: It’s not great news, but it could be so much worse. At least, this time I know what to expect.
Looks like my 2013 is going to be a repeat of 2012, medically speaking anyway.
If that’s the only thing that repeats, 2013 is still going to be a vast improvement over 2012. I’m still looking forward to the adventure. And I still plan to ride to and from every single radiation treatment.
Posted on December 11, 2012, in Breast Cancer and tagged 2012, 2013, adventure, breast cancer, cancer, children, courage, DCIS, finances, financial difficulty, gratitude, hardship, healing, health, hope, insomnia, life, mammogram, Miz Insomniac, mizinsomniac, personal, positive attitude, single moms, single parenting, single parents, stress. Bookmark the permalink. 2 Comments.